it's never too late to repent. <33

♥ 2007/11/20

haiz. donno y sth has been botherin mi fr so long.was listenin to my mp3 during work n heard tis song whic brin bak memories frm e past suddenly i donno hu to tok to donno hu to share wif? im really regret aft so long i yet unable to forgt everyting frm e past. wad e hack im doin?? its 8mths n 12days since dhen. time fly so fast hw i wiish i everyting can rewind bak. haiz i oni wish fr a chance tt tym but it seem so hard. i really hurt i really donno wad to do. its seem so hard fr mi to noe e truth. i felt such a failure. really. haiz. y i hav such feeling??? if tym can rewind by 1yrs4mths12days mayb nth will happen. perharps its all fate barhs?? haiz sianx. i tired my v best to frgt everyting. but it seem useless. i donno weather u seeing tis or nt? perharps nt barhs?? haiz. mayb u tink everyting is alrite aft so long but deep dwn in my heart u will always b rmb. mayb tt is y i still don hab e guts to face reallity barhs?? no one understands mi. mayb u can? mayb nt? haiz is really hurtin is really hard to let go jus by a word or two. i donno y im still waitin fr wad?? fr u come bak?? or fr u to b gone fr good??? haiiz y??? i really donno wad as i can do. untill nw i still donno wad i shud do. shud i jus carry lyk nth hav happen b4? or jus b a fool 4eva?? haiz i really wish fr tt day to come but i guess is hard? or shud i say is jus a fairytales?? haiz y??? i really love you really wan to b wif u. but i cannt i failed to do so. untill nw i still felt hard to accept others. i scare i mite gt hurt or dey mite gt hurt. i really donno. but nw seeing u leadin wif ur happy life i'm happy fr u. as long as u r happy to mi i can jus dissappear in e ashes. perharps u hav forgotten mi le barhs? or shud i say i'm forgotten fr gud?? haiz. i shedded tears but no ones noe. ppl tot im fine but im nt deep dwn in my heart. i don feel easy i don feel gud. i hav bcome weaker n weaker. im jus dissappointed whn i reliease my name was nt mention as ur frend?? its shows e 8mth was jus a dream?? mayb to u but nt to mi. mayb we din really had gud memories. haiz if i wasnt such a failure mayb tings wun end up lyk tt barhs?? haiz. sianx can someone tell mi wad to do??? im so fckin moodless so fck up le larhs. i really really donno wad to do... i cannt lead my life lyk nth hav happen. its hurtin. a pain u nv noe or nv felt b4. mayb u hav but nt nw. haiz. i noe i seem selfish but i oni one a chance a day a hr a min?? a chance fr mi to change ur heart no matter wad i will do it. but guess it will nv come true barhs... haiz wad an idiot i am... feelings change memories dont? or feelings change memories do gone?? haiz...

~~feelings change memories don't~~
~~&&i still love you tt much.~~

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