it seems so hard to see the rainbow each day when it doesn't seems to rain. haiz. just like an idiot standing in a wide green field day & night hoping to see the rainbow once in the blue is even harder. when it doesn't even rain at all. when is it going to rain? when will the rainbow appear? does rainbow only appear only after the rain?? why is that so? or does rainbow appear when it doesn't even rain?? why does rainbow have seven colours? what does the seven colours mean? or it doesn't mean anything just because is looks appealing to the eyes? illusion of seven colours? red orange yellow green blue indigo violet? ROYGBIY?? guess it just plain colour & only looks appealing to the eyes of everyone only. but why people is so keen to see the rainbow?? but others do not? haiz. i really do not know what im typing. haiz. is miracles just like rainbow? only appear after the rain?? or appear even when it doesn't rain? haiz. why must is be the rain come first then the rainbow?? is the rain much more important for the rainbow to appear?? why rainbow only appear for a moment & dissappear after awhile? haiz. i tired many ways, holding on to it. but somehow it still slip pass my hand right through my finger. haiz. why do i have to go through such shits?? fate? destiny? i do not know. does trust really that much effect on everything we do?? i think it does. why do people tend to stand up after they fall?? cause they do not want to get defeated that easy?? cause they want to prove they can do better?? but why some do not tend to stand up & intend to keep falling each time ?? cause they already give up everything? they do not want to make the same mistake again? fear & scare that they will not be able to handle it again? haizz. i tired my best to do everything i could but i just know it will not change a thing. 只知道珍惜的东西，当事情已经过去 what does this mean?? it took me awhile to finally understand what it means but it seems too late? but why does people still make the same mistake & regret again ?? haiz. why people 知道如何珍惜，但不知道如何去珍惜. 知道如何珍惜，但最后是年底费力. haiz. 本当にないチャンスがある左側のですか？愛に強制することはできません。私知って困らとすることはできませんについては何もないこと。 しかし、あなたを知って私はあなたと私はまだ愛を待つよ。haiz. the laugher the smile the tears the saddness will it last?? . . . i guess thats all ba. shall end here ba. 愛しています


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